blink of an eye

I guess i made the first of hundreds of school lunches this morning. I got butterflies in my stomach when I started making the peanut butter and jelly sandwhich. Today my sweet Camryn started kindergarten. I can't believe that day is here already. When you have a baby, that day seems so far away like it will never get here, but it does and it did today.

I remember my first day of K. I remember walking in for the first time and feeling nervous. I remember the table where I sat and how I was relieved that my best friend Julie was there. Then later Julie and I locked another girl in the bathroom. I don't think Camryn will do anything like that. (although Julie if you are reading this, i would do it all over again, wouldn't you?)

So, i had the luxury of having a good friend in my class.....Camryn on the other hand may take a while to make some friends. Her class is very diverse with 19 kids who are white, black, hispanic, asian, etc.....

It seems like only yesterday Camryn was a baby holding her toes all the time just like Hudson does now.....and then a toddler walking around in her diaper being silly.

But today she was such a big girl going to school with her Hannah Montana backpack filled with crayons, pencils, glue sticks, etc....

Then again, she was so little when she started to cry on the way there. She had been so excited until then. I guess the reality set in. We got out of the car and Miles prayed for her and she clung to him, but then I took her in and her teachers Mr. W and Mrs. C were there to greet her. She was still crying a little when I left, but I was able to hold it together at least. Until I got out into the hall. Then my own tears came.

I knew better than to go straight home, b/c then the house might feel empty without Camryn there and I would just lay in bed all day crying and looking at her baby pictures....oh, i'm just kidding.....as if I ever get to lay in bed all day.....I barely even sit down all day......so I headed to Target with Sadie and Hudson and wandered around aimlessly for a while b/c it seemed so easy to be there with only 2 kids. When Sadie starts preschool next week it will really be easy to navigate the aisles of Target with only Hudson.

Anyways, she had a great day. She cried a little more after snack time, but was happy when I picked her up. Here she is smiling as we are leaving. She made friends with 2 girls named Nicole and Sameen and she sat between them at lunch and thought the cafeteria was really cool.